For the sake of not sharing all my friend's lives for the world to see, I shall change their names to characters from Thoroughly Modern Millie. That way if my friends aren't ready to share their stories, they don't have to, and I get to hum songs from Millie throughout my typing this part of the blog. Win-win.
So anyway, last night, I got a call from "Millie" that she was engaged! Words can't describe how excited I am!! Her finance "Jimmy" was very nice to spare her for the 30 minutes it took for us to adequately squeal and laugh and cry and reminisce. Needless to say, I was completely floored, and my friend is happier than I've ever seen her, and for that I am overwhelmingly excited for the two of them. Once the story is told, and her Facebook profile is updated, I shall share that story because it's awesome.
Then, another friend of mine this morning "Trevor Graydon" informs me that he has been cast in a kick-ass musical in a starring role. Totally amazing! I am so happy for him! He deserves all the success that is coming his way, for he is truly one of the most talented people I've had the pleasure of meeting since starting my New York adventures. More to come on this later as well.
Anyway, I had brunch with Em and Nick this morning (no need to hide those names, right?), and afterwards I was on Cloud 9. Seriously, walking on air. Completely thinking that the universe had some amazing positive fancy energy out there, I was looking forward to becoming a part of that. I was humming along just thinking about my good friends' great fortunes. And just being happy. I know I've said that a lot, but I really was.
Anyway, I called my mom to talk about a great meeting I had on Saturday afternoon (another reason I was happy!) and she interrupted my gushing to tell me, "I'm really sorry to have to bring you down from this, but Katherine's father passed away unexpectedly this morning." (Katherine is my cousin Mark's fiancée, and they are getting married in August.) I know a lot of people would read the paragraphs above this and say, "well, naturally something bad was bound to happen!" but that's not really how I roll. I'm not a person who holds back very much emotionally speaking, so when my spirits are high, I'm literally flying; and therefore, when the bottom drops out, I'm completely crushed. I was literally walking up 2nd Avenue practically skipping at the start of the phone call with my mom, and within seconds of hearing the news, I was crying and heartbroken. For the next few hours, every time I would think of Katherine having to prepare for her wedding without her dad, I would dissolve into a crying mess. At Barnes and Noble, at Starbucks, at work. I'm sure on a deeper level it's because when my wedding comes, I won't have my dad around, and that sucks and all that jazz, but on the surface, I think that I just find myself Quantum Leaping* into people's emotions. I suppose life would be a lot easier if I could distance myself even a little bit, but then I guess I wouldn't be the person I am now. So, I guess I'll just try to keep my personal emotional roller coaster on the track and realize that without the high highs and the low lows, life would just be a series of that really flat part of the roller coaster when the ride is over and you're just coasting back to the start. Look at me and my metaphor skills.
I suppose I'll end this somber post for the night. In the end, I suppose I don't really mind the intense feelings my little Pisces mind conjures up. I am genuinely thrilled to be able to share in my friends' exciting adventures and accomplishments when they are overjoyed. And, though usually, it's not an easy thing to do, sharing the tears and disappointments matters just as much. Maybe more? I guess it's just my way of trying to reach my own equilibrium with the universe.
*Disclaimer: I never actually watched Quantum Leap because it came on at the same time as Lois and Clark. And I think we all know which show won my loyalty...
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